one step at a time.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Bad day over now

Well it's done - Kandinsky has gone. We took her to the vets this morning and they told us the cancer had spread to her intestine. She had also dropped her weight from 3.5kg on 14th December to 3.2 today - which is quite a big drop really proportionately over two weeks. So there wasn't really a choice.

Many thanks to everyone for helping us. It was the most horrible thing I've done - we loved her and it's very difficult to let go.

This afternoon we just abandoned ship and went down South together - nothing left to hang around in Glasgow for and we needed something to do. So this is me on my Dad's computer. It's the first time I've seen the blog on a different PC and it is strange that it looks so different. I'd never really thought that people would see it differently.

My neighbour then phoned to tell me that our organic vegetable box had been delivered and should she check there were no perishables. I said to her to take anything she could use and she rang off saying she'd leave the box in our house. About 20 seconds later PANIC STRUCK! We have left our house an absolute pig sty. I haven't swept the kitchen floor since Christmas Eve and there are actually star shaped icing sugar remains on the surface from where I made gingerbread cookies the other day. I WAS SO EMBARASSED! I tried to call and ask her just to take all the food and we'd come and collect it from her but she'd already left her house. AAAAGH!!!!!!! At least I'd done the washing up before we left.

I'm off now to have get ready to pop out for a bit. Going to head into the town to see some old friends - not drinking as I suspect it wouldn' t take too much to set me off again!! Mum and Dad are out tonight at the theatre (gone to Stratford to see the Royal Shakespeare Company... how posh!!) so I'll see them when I get back.

Anyway: Thanks again x x

34 comments:

ML (Mary Lynn) said...

I am so sorry to hear this sad news, but Kandi isn't suffering anymore.

It's hard to let them go, so hard, but sometimes you have to do it for them, when you would rather do anything to keep them with you.

Anndi said...

I'm so sorry about your beloved Kandinsky. The most difficult choice one has to make about that lovely ball of fur that's a part of your family...

Give yourself time...

ML (Mary Lynn) said...

What you did is a very hard thing to do, very very hard. But you put Kandi and her feelings FIRST and that is what counts. She is at peace and not hurting.

Their devotion to us is so extraordinary, they will keep themselves going no matter what the pain or suffering.

If there is anything I can do, just let me know. I feel so helpless.

Take care and you are in our prayers...ML

Skeeeeezix the Cat said...

I'm vary vary sorry to heer abowt Kandy. Owr thots and purrayers are with yoo.

Diana said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a pet is very much like losing a family member. They added their personality to your life and made it better.

Keep the good memories and pictures!

Hugs!

Grr, Midnight & Cocoa said...

we're so sorry to hear about Kandinsky, but we're glad she won't be in pain. purrrrrs.

Emma's Kat said...

I just heard about Kandi's passing. I'm so sorry! At least you know now she is happy and running about at the Rainbow Bridge. I lost my beloved Danny Boy two years ago to cancer, much in the same way. It was an agressive cancer. I still miss him so much. Take care. You will be in my thoughts and prayers as well.

Annelisa said...

Big, big hugs, Topchamp!!

I'm so sorry you had to make that decision, but you did the right thing, a very selfless thing. The poor mite would only have got worse, and in more pain.

Kandinski will always be with you - I know my pets are still treasured by the whole family, and those photos are precious in time to come.

And of your other matter - your messy house - bet your neighbour is even more friendly after visiting your house... there's nothing more satisfying than going into someone else's house and finding it as messy (or even messier?) than your own... usually puts me right at ease. And if she makes a comment (which she won't) then you can always blame it on your recent tragic distraction... seeing as it is a definate possibility that this is the centre cause of the mess being left (unless, of course, you are like me and live in permenant chaos!!)

((((((More big hugs)))))

XX

Oh, and if you don't get on a pc beforehand - Happy New Year!!

Puff said...

We are sorry to hear about Kandi. We are sending you some purrs and nuzzles from New York.

Mia and Ghost said...

We are sorry that Kandi had to go to the bridge - purrs & headbutts....

Mia & Ghost

Rose said...

Sending warm thoughts and prayers your way, in sympathy for your loss. It's true, a part of Kandi will always be with you in your heart.
{{{{{{hugs & purrs}}}}}}

Rose and the Royals

daniel s. said...

I'm sorry. I know you wanted to hang on to her forever, but you put Kandinsky first, no matter how much it hurt.

And I think you have every excuse to leave the house however you left it, up to and including on fire. I'm not sure I would have remembered to close the door after what you and Kandi have gone through.

sammawow-china cat-willow said...

We were so sorry to read about Kandi - our thoughts are with you.

Purrs, China Cat & Willow

Travis said...

Oh dear. Even when you know it's for the best, taking that final road with your beloved pet is never easy.

Condolences to you from me and Mr Tucker.

Bond said...

TC:
Again, another hug and kind thoughts. As many have said, losing a pet can be sas difficult as losing a family member.
You will remember her always.

Lux said...

Many hugs from me and my family - we'll be thinking of you both tonight.

Taz n Angel said...

we are sooooo sorry!

The Meezers said...

we are so sorry about Kandi. But, we are sure that she is at the Rainbow Bridge with our Trixie (who went 4 months ago today) running and playing, and waiting for you.
We will light a candle for her tonight.

momsbusy said...

kandi is at the rainbow bridge. a place without pain and suffering. she will be waiting for you there when your time comes. we will be keeping you and your family in our prayers.
momsbusy, yuki & kimiko

CCLTsite said...

So sorry to hear about Kandi. Prayers for you as it hurts so bad. Kandi will live on in your heart and some day you will remember her with smiles instead of tears. God Bless.

Casper and Caspersmom

Kimo & Sabi said...

We're so bummed to hear about Kandi...we're sending our purrrs and prayers - she is pain free now, running and playing and smiling down at you.

KC said...

o, i's so sorry to hear 'bout Kandi goin to tha bridge today. but she wuz probly in a lots of pain 'n hurtin. u's did tha right thing fur hers. 'n she be waitin fur u's ta come home to her later.

Purrrrsss 'n headbutts, KC

Studio Susie said...

So sorry to hear of your loss...I've been there twice before and nothing makes it easy. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
(Kimo & Sabi's momma)

Smeagol & Strider (Mystery & Gizmo too!) said...

We are so sorry. We're sendin' purrs to you.

The Crusty Crone said...

"Bad Day" sounds like an understatement. I hope you are feeling better now.

Coco said...

So sorry, TC. My thoughts are with you.

Eric and Flynn said...

We are so sorry to hear your sad news. Try to take comfort in the knowledge that she is no longer sick and in pain. Now she will be whole again, and enjoy her time at the Rainbow Bridge playing with her friends, old and new.

Katharina said...

My heart goes out to you. It's so hard to lose a beloved friend. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

My Marrakech said...

Topchamp-I hope that all this feline and otherwise love found in your comments offer some small measure of comfort for you. I wish I could whisk myself over there from Marrakesh to take you out for a nice hot toddy and a chat.

xoxox

burekaboy — said...

omg -- so sorry to hear this, topchamp. i gasped when i read it. suffice it to say she is not suffering now.

losing a beloved pet is one of the hardest things. again, my condolences to you.

Morgen said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Kandi knows how much you loved her, and knowing that you helped her cross over the rainbow bridge will help ease your heartache eventually.
Our love from Purrchance To Dream,
Morgen
Daphne & Chloe
Spooker, and Jazper

TopChamp said...

You're all so lovely! I think she's better off this way. Took a day or two of telling myself that to really believe it but you all helped loads.

My old cat Tito is here (Mum & Dad's) and he is great. It was a bit weird seeing him at first as he's a tabby too and he's 19 when my cat had just died at 7, but he has been quite happy to give me lots of cuddles so the weirdness has gone.

Beau Beau & Angie said...

We are so sorry to hear about Kandi. The rainbow bridge is where we'll all meet again. It doesn't seem like it but eventually over time it won't hurt so much although we never stop thinking about our "babies" from before. They are always in our hearts.

Caylynn said...

So sorry to hear about Kandinsky. :( I lost my long-time companion Whiskers in September, so I know what it's like to lose a dear cat. Kandi is now at the Rainbow Bridge.

You have my condolences.